Shakerules Diaries

Dear Nkem,

How are you doing now and today? Hope all is fine. Well, it has been a very long time since we’ve seen each other and I must let you know that the pain I’m having right now is more than what I can express to you in writing.

Nkem, it’s time for us to put away our childish attitude because now I really know how much we are missing each other. Please, do come back to me; you still have a place in my heart, I am assuring you that I have been very lonely ever since you said goodbye.

Remember those days when we both shared together the songs we sang together, how we played together, the smiles that come on us each time we see each other. Nkem don’t throw away all the sweet memories, which we have shared.

My one and only, please come back to me. You still have a place in my heart. I know quite sure that you may feel I will not give you a chance based on the old stories. This is the only opportunity we have to rewrite our history. Never mind, just put away your pride because I’ll accept any simplicity at any giving time.

Come back, please come back and rewrite our history.

It’s me, your one and lonely,

Tonym

Dear Johnny,

It’s been so long since I’ve been in your arms, felt your touch, or looked into your eyes. The worst part about it all is that I only have myself to blame for it all. I’d give anything for just one last chance to be with you. I thought I was over you, but who am I kidding, I’m not. Please tell me what it would take to be close to you again, I’d do whatever you ask me to. I miss you.

Love always,

Tisha

Dear Hunter,

It will always be you that brings fireworks into my life, not just on the 4th of July but every day before and after. I will always love you. Whether we are together or not, my love for you is still as strong as it was in the beginning. Maybe stronger because I am more determined than ever that we belong together. Now if I could only get you to believe it too and to stop being so afraid. I will never hurt you; I will never leave you. I love you unconditionally. I have seen both the best and the worst of you and I love you more because of that. I want to go back to where we were. I want to be even better than that. You know it’s right, that’s why even though we have been broken up for over a year; we still find our way back to each other every time we see one another. We can’t stay away. I see your love for me in your eyes, in your smile and my love for you is reflected back at you every time I look at you.

I love you,

Christy

Dear Jeremy,

I’ve loved you so much all these years, and those feelings can’t and won’t ever leave this heart of mine. Every time I am around you I want to let you know that I miss you so much and I really miss us. You are that someone, that special person that I could never deny my love for. I have made some really messed up choices and went down the wrong roads in our past and in our relationship, but I need you to know that because of all of those choices, I have made a turn for the better. I need you in my life, my arms, my heart, and in my world.

Can you stop and think about the question I am about to ask you very hard? Jeremy, I am asking for the opportunity to love you with all that I am now and all that I will be in the future. I don’t want to continue living my life feeling empty and lonely any more. Just the mention of your name is an instant smile, goose bumps, and a wish of us being together again. I still need you and I still would like to call you “Sexy” as well as you to call me your “Beav” again.

Love always,

Joleen

Dear Danny,

Danny, you know I love you. It has been almost a year and I still want you back. You must see that. You must realize that I can’t let you go. You were my first. I truly love you. I made so many mistakes. I screwed up with my jealousy. I see how I had nothing to worry about. I had you and my stupid thinking told me otherwise but my heart always knew you loved me and that you wouldn’t leave me, but I had to mess everything up and my pathetic attempts to try and get you back. I tried to forget about you but it is so hard to stop loving a man like you. You’re a smart, handsome, funny man who has a great future ahead of you and I want to be a part of it. I believe in second chances no matter how much a person screws up and I screwed up big. I believe we are meant to be together forever and always. We were best friends since the 9th grade and I’ve loved you since then. Please take me back. Mend my broken heart.

Love always,

Shauna

Dear Ira,

My eyes couldn’t see that you were always there surrounding me, covering me, drowning me in your love. My heart was closed and I took you for granted. I had to lose you to find us again. For the first time I truly see you, the lover of my soul. For the first time I see your smile, the light in your eyes. For the first time I see myself as I was without you. For the first time I see myself through your heart’s eyes. With you, at last, I know what real love is … for the first time.

I love you,

Lorelei

Dear Michael,

I have been trying to reach you with no luck. I am posting this so hopefully one day you will find it, although I doubt you will. Maybe I will get lucky and someone we know will see it and tell you about it.

The Air Force has really changed the man I once knew, but it was for the good. You have done so much for yourself I couldn’t be more proud of you.

I know that things between us went terribly wrong. I want to fix them. I am not pointing fingers or placing blame on anyone. I just want to fix them. The last night we spent together was something I have needed for so long. I wish it would have never ended. I thought seeing you again would make me nervous but it felt as it always has. It felt like coming home again. It felt natural and calming.

I miss you so much. I know that you are going to Iraq soon and I am dreading it. I am scared I will never see your sweet face again. I will be praying for your safe return. I feel as if you are so far away even though Charleston is pretty much right down the road. I want to see you again before you go overseas. I am praying that you will come to see me again.

I know we are no longer a couple but I wish we were. I have always been there for you and nothing will ever change that. I still love you more than anything in this world. I still want to be an “officer’s wife” as you so eloquently put it that day. I hope that someday, this will find you. Until then I will keep trying and hoping for the best.

Love always,

Mindy

Dear Deeman,

You once gave me your trust and honesty; I did what I wanted with it, including hurting you in many ways. You gave me your love and I stomped on it. Many years have past and I found my true self. And again you trusted me. Now is time for me to give you my trust and honesty.

I see you in different eyes – I see you like never before. I see a father and a husband-to-be. Will you be my husband forever and ever? I give you my heart and soul. I love you more each day I’m by your side and I thank you for giving me another chance to give you my love and to appreciate you the way I should have many years ago.

Love always,

Edna

Dear Amanda,

When we first met, my heart was filled with love and joy. I could not ever imagine life without you. Now, due to my selfish ways, I no longer have you to hold and to love. I miss you, Baby. My heart still beats, but it beats with no purpose, no meaning. It beats with an empty rhythm. Only you, Amanda, can fill my heart again and make it beat with love, with hope, with eternal being. Please, Baby, let’s try to piece our relationship back together. I need you … my heart needs you.

Love always,

Danny

Dear Baby,

Baby, I can’t even begin to say to you how much I miss you – your smell, laughter, the way you do things. I do, more than anything, want our love back together to see you happily smiling and most of all to be proud to stand beside me again. I’ve hurt you so much and I am so very sorry for that pain. I want to be the old me again because I do want to be with you every day and night for the rest of my life. But most of all, I just pray that you will take me back in your heart. Because I don’t want any more hurt or pain towards you or the kids ever again. Baby, I love you so much and really miss you a lot. I just hope one day you will forgive me for what I have caused.

Love always,

Charles

Dear Louis,

I wish I could go back in time to our relationship, back before hurt found its way into our hearts. If only I could slip myself back to those moments, I would have have been more honest to myself and more attentive to what my heart was telling me. I would have held you a little longer and never, ever hurt you … but time will not allow me to go back and change my mistakes.

I can’t take away the questions that flood you, but I can try to answer them. I can’t erase the pain that fills your heart, but I can help in trying to ease it. I know that I can’t just jump back into your life and expect everything to remain the same, nor can I expect you to still have intimate feelings for me. A lot of time has passed between us and just because I feel as though I am now ready to have you in my life; it may now be different for you. I know I can’t have things fall into place whenever I am ready for them; destiny has no patience and holds for no one. I might have lost my chance with you because of my ignorance and my fear of falling in love, but I can’t ignore this gut feeling in my heart like I once did before.

I want us to work things out, and though it might not be possible, if you’re willing … I want to try. I am no longer scared as I was before, and being with you, I should have realized from the beginning that I never had any reason to be.

I miss you, and if for whatever reason things don’t work out between us, or if you choose to remain as a friend, that’s perfectly fine. I will take it as fate passed me by and that we just weren’t meant to be together. Whatever the outcome might be, know that I am so happy to still have you as a part of my life.

Love,

Naly

Dear Bobby,

If I were given 3 wishes, I would first ask to wake up in your arms every day for the rest of my life. I want to breathe in the same air you breathe, when you awake to a new day. My second wish would be that I never harm you, disappoint you, or break your heart again. I only want to love you like no one ever has before. My third wish – it really is very simple – is that you would only tell me if you want any of these same things I want. If possibly you may still love me, and want me with you together to get though life, happy and satisfied. One word from you and I am sure this can be done, because I love you more today then I did before – it just gets stronger with time; it doesn’t fade. I will always love you; this much I’m sure of. I wouldn’t ask for diamonds, gold or a million dollars. None of that could make me as happy as I would be to just have you in my life once again!

Love always,

Crystal

Dear Cevio,

I will always regret that day that I broke up with you. You meant so much to me. You’re my world, my love, and my best friend. I remember those days walking to the park. Those days were the best days that I’ve ever had in my life. Each day, I walk down to that park and sit on the bench that we would always sit on. I would sit and start to cry tears of sadness that I lost you. I know that you would never come back to me because you’re afraid that I might hurt you again, but that’s not true. I would never hurt you ever again if you give me another chance.

Love always,

Esthela

Dear Scott,

I am so amazed at our relationship. It had been my only dream to be with you again. I am so glad that we have come together to share what we had both been missing for way too long. You make me feel as if I am most important person on earth. It is the most wonderful feeling in the world to feel the love that we cherish. I have loved you since the day I laid eyes on you, and I am excited to be sharing my life with you again. My love for you is beyond any love I have ever seen or ever known. You are my passion for life. Our life is everlasting. It is rare that two lovers so in love reunite after going through so much. I am thankful for your forgiveness and am enjoying every waking breath with you. You mean the world to me; you are my everything. I love you and am so grateful to share what we had both been missing.

With all of my love for eternity,

Mandy

Dear Nazri,

Two years have passed but I will never forget how we first met. I was standing there at the department store when you walked past me with a wide smile on your face. A minute later, I received a note, on the back of it you wrote, “Nazri, tel:xxxxxxx.” I was attached to someone else then but somehow I felt my heart skipped a beat when I saw your smiling face. The conversation we had then, I’ll never forget. Although you’re not much of a “talker”, your presence is enough to make my day. You claimed that I was your “Love at First Sight.”

As days passed by, I realized that what I did was wrong; to be in love with two. Upon knowing my consciousness, you withdrew yourself. I still remember that painful moment… there were tears in my eyes, but you just walked away without turning back, and since that day, I NEVER heard from you nor bumped into you. After a year and a half (presently), I still have feelings for you.

My relationship with the other guy didn’t work out and I was hoping that I might find you. “Miracles do happen,” people say, but I didn’t believe it until I saw your face one day and today, at last, we’re together! I just want the whole world to know how much you mean to me. You are my everything. I lost you before; I don’t want to lose you again. Till now, I always asked myself, “Could this be real? Is he the ONE for me?” The answers to my questions are in your hands. I have faith in you and never will I give that up. Without your love, I’d be half a being. Maybe one day you will understand. Now and forever, until the time is through … I love you, Nazri.

Love always,

Lyana