Shakerules Diaries

Words cannot express how much your friendship means to me. You have always found the time to cheer me up via e-mail and/or messages, and chat lines.

You always seem to know just what to say and I really appreciate that. I know that you are so sincere with your thoughts that you write to me and I know with time we will see each other and I can’t wait.

Thank you for your friendship and for being there when I need you. Whenever I am down, I can think of you and it seems to work. Thank you.

Before you came along, I use to think that I was ugly and just not special but now that you are in my life, you have made me feel like I am special and pretty. You never want to hear from me that I am ugly and not worth it. I know that I am worth so much to you and I love that in you.

No matter what happens in our lives, I know that you made my life so much better and I love you.

Words cannot express how much your friendship means to me. You have always found the time to cheer me up via e-mail and/or messages, and chat lines.

You always seem to know just what to say and I really appreciate that. I know that you are so sincere with your thoughts that you write to me and I know with time we will see each other and I can’t wait.Thank you for your friendship and for being there when I need you. Whenever I am down, I can think of you and it seems to work. Thank you.

Before you came along, I use to think that I was ugly and just not special but now that you are in my life, you have made me feel like I am special and pretty. You never want to hear from me that I am ugly and not worth it. I know that I am worth so much to you and I love that in you.

No matter what happens in our lives, I know that you made my life so much better and I love you.

I just wanted to write you and let you know how much I do love you and how close we have became in such a short period of time. We may not have known each other long but our love is strong and it means everything to me. You are the one who always makes me feel better about myself and makes me laugh at all the crazy stuff we talk about that no one understands but us. I’m glad I found you and I hope we spend a lot more happy times together in the future. Thanks just for being here for me I love you more than words I could say.

I understand that we have not been together for very long, but I want to express to you the love that I feel. My life has been a hellish nightmare, one that haunts and never leaves me to peace. The day that I realized that I loved you, my bad dreams ceased.

What I feel for you is that awesome love that poets write about and that we mere mortals only dream of experiencing. It is the love that is considered unconditional and undying; so great that my heart seems to burst with the joy of it. I cannot fathom living my life without you – waking would never be the same without your sweet face to look forward to; I would not be living, just existing; sleeping would be impossible without you to dream of.

You have made my life worth every moment, every breath. Back then we are young, and as such are thought not to feel such intense emotion, but what I feel is true and blinding in it’s power. You have swept me away and proved to me that magic exists – in you.

We will be separated soon, but I believe and have faith that what we feel for each other will overcome and outlast the distance. My heart is yours, my soul in your keeping. Please treasure it…

When the world closes in and lies so heavily upon you,

remember – I care.

When love seems to only bring you pain,

remember – I care.

What cannot be, cannot be, but always,

remember – I care.

Never be afraid to come to me if you have need of the simplest thing! No matter what it is,

remember – I care.

Tomorrow’s hopes and dreams will never die as long as you believe in yourself and follow your heart. The kindnesses in your heart will guide you to accomplish many things in life and overcome all challenges and all obstacles. Never give up, always have faith in yourself, and you will gain the greatest gift of all, the gift of hope and love you rightly deserve.

Whatever you may do in the future, never let anyone stand in the way of you pursuing your dreams. Know that you will always have family and friends to rely on whenever you need them. No matter what you may decide to do in life, I will be right there to help, support, and love you. I wish you only the best as you continue chasing your dreams.

Someone wrote this on my college yearbook;

“… is a hopeless romantic. He sees through everything and composes verses in his mind. He talks about the great passions and immersed in them. He is a poet mincing words, evoking feelings, hiding himself…”

A hopeless romantic? It was not because there was an object of beauty that I desired, but because I believe in the ideals of perfect love. Along with it is the perfect timing, the perfect person, at the perfect place. So I just kept to myself the identity of my crushes and made understatements in uttering my admiration.

When asked the question: When are you going to have a girlfriend? My usual reply: In the right time. But at the back of my head, I feared that the right time had already happened, and I let it slip away. I don’t want to undergo the pain of rejection, or being forced to love someone who first loved me. So I waited.

Someone said that one of the mistakes of young men is that they I idolized love too much. Perhaps, there is some truth to it.

Then the right time came, and the right person suddenly appeared in my life. From friends to lovers, we became. I learned that perfect love is when you accept the imperfection, and love him or her just the same. The perfect timing happens every time you show love and care.

OH, when I was in love with you,
Then I was clean and brave,
And miles around the wonder grew
How well did I behave.

And now the fancy passes by,
And nothing will remain,
And miles around they ’ll say that I
Am quite myself again.

XVIII. Oh, when I was in love with you
Alfred Edward Housman (1859–1936). from A Shropshire Lad. 1896.

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I remembered a classmate back in high school who was courting one of the prettiest girls in our 2nd year class. We were amazed at how behaved he was. We all knew he’s one of the class jesters. But this time, he was dead serious. Gone are the usual jokes. He said he wanted to look his best to impress the girl.

We just played along and let him do his stuff. But it’s kind of weird not seeing him laughing and making jokes here and there. His grooming improved. His curly hair seemed to be in a good place. His moves were carefully done. He looked like a real gentleman with the girl.

A few weeks passed and he was no longer with her. He arrived to class late and with uncombed hair. We asked him what happened. “We broke up” he curtly said. “I don’t want to talk about it”.

And so be it. We were glad he was back to his normal self again. His sense of humor returned to him, and we again enjoyed his company. But I haven’t heard anything about his love life after that, even years after we graduated from high school.

I had a story for you… (“,)

There was once this guy who is very much in love with his girl. This romantic guy folded 1,000 pieces of paper cranes as a gift to his girl.

Although, at that time he was just a small fry in his company, his future didn’t seem too bright, they were very happy together. Until one day, his girl told him she was going to Paris and will never come back. She also told him that she cannot visualize any future for the both of them, so they went their own ways there and then…

Heartbroken, the guy agreed. But when he regained his confidence, he worked hard day and night, slogging his body and mind just to make something out of him.

Finally with all the hard work and the help of friends, this guy had set up his own company.

One rainy day, while this guy was driving, he saw an elderly couple sharing an umbrella in the rain walking to some destination. Even with the umbrella, they were still drenched. It didn’t take him long to realize they were his former girl’s parents.

With a vengeance in his heart, he drove slowly beside the couple, wanting them to spot him in his luxury sedan. He wanted them to know that he wasn’t the same any more; he had his own company, car, condo, etc. The couple noticed him the way he wanted it to be. But what he saw next confused him. The couple was walking towards a cemetery. and so he got out of his car and followed the couple…and he saw his girl, a photograph of her smiling sweetly as ever at him from her tombstone and he saw his paper cranes right beside her…

Her parents saw him. He asked them why this had happened. They explained. She did not leave for France at all. She was ill with cancer. She had believed that he will make it someday, but she did not want to be his obstacle… therefore she had chosen to leave him.

Just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to, doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have. She had wanted her parents to put his paper cranes beside her, because, if the day comes when fate brings him to her again…he can take some of those back with him…

Once you have loved, you will always love. For what’s in your mind may escape but what’s in your heart will remain forever.

The guy just wept…The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside her knowing you can’t have her, see her or be with her ever again……. ..hope you understand.

Find time to realize that there is one person who means so much to you, for you might wake up one morning losing that person who you thought meant nothing to you.

Whatever is in your past, whatever you have done… And the devil keeps throwing it up in your face (lying, cheating, debt, fear, bad habits, hatred, anger, bitterness, etc.)…whatever it is…You need to know that:

God was standing at the window and He saw the whole thing.

He has seen your whole life…. He wants you to know that He loves you and that you are forgiven. He’s just wondering how long you will let the devil make a slave of you.

The great thing about God is that when you ask for forgiveness; He not only forgives you, but He forgets.

It is by God’s grace and mercy that we are saved.

1. Don’t turn your back to love when it’s already in front of you. Don’t drive it away from you, because if you do, someday, you’ll think again, why you let love flew when it was there next to you.

2. In Love, think things first over if you’re sure about how you feel. Don’t fall too hard not knowing where you will stand, ‘coz it will hurt real bad if things don’t go the way you want them to be.

3. It’s an irony to know that it takes hours for someone to have guts to say “hi” to the one he likes, days to admire, weeks to miss the person, months to love, but just a blink of an eye to say goodbye…

4. Go for the person who loves you. It is not wrong to love someone who belongs to someone else, but it is much better to love someone who could also love you in return.

5. Love isn’t something we hold, it is something we set free. It’s not something we just do, but it’s something we don’t imagine to be. Lastly, it’s not something we choose, it chooses us…

6. The scariest thing about falling in love is getting hurt. The scariest thing about getting hurt is not being able to love again. The scariest thing about not loving again is being alone forever.

7. When you follow your heart, worry not where it will lead you, for your heart knows the way. And if you do get lost or reach a dead end, use your head to lead you back home.

8. When you truly care for someone, you don’t look for faults, you don’t look for answers, you don’t look for mistakes. Instead, you fight for the mistakes, you accept the faults, and you overlook excuses.

9. It’s better to lose your pride to the one you love, than lose your loved one to your useless pride.

10. Love is …… not “it’s your fault”, but “I’m sorry”, not “where are you?”, but “I’m here”, not “how could you?”, but “I understand”, not “I wish you were here”, but “I’m thankfulyou are”.

11. The beginning of love is to let those we love be just they, and not twist with our own image. Otherwise, we love only the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

12. If a relationship is truly meant for you, your love will find a way to make it happen, and God will be there to make sure it will stay.